To briefly explain my recent mental journey, I went home for New Year's Eve and met a couple of girls on blind dates, I still feel like I want to have a liking for more than just the right conditions or suitability for marriage, I need a partner, a co-creator for the future. I want her to be a generous, informed wife. I will also be a good romantic, responsible husband who tries to give to his family. Unfortunately, I haven't found her for a while, and I can only console myself with this. 2026/04/07